It’s been awhile since I’ve written a thoughtpost haven’t I?
Life has been overwhelming. Work has been piling up and I barely have enough time to whip out my laptop to document midnight thoughts like before. If you’re reading this and checking back sometimes, I just wanted to say thank you.
I just visited my grandmother’s resting place again today. It also dawned on me how beautiful her name was – 林爱好。To think I didn’t pay that much attention to that and only realising this now. She was definitely what her name suggests – kind, brave, strong, charismatic and everything to me. But well, let’s get on with this short piece.
Pain is what we feel every single day. As much as we have grown proficient at masking it or having it at the back of our minds, we can’t deny that we have all been scarred one way or another.
It’s not called life if it comprises only of happy moments, right? I’m writing to reach out to any of you who are experiencing a sense of loss, grief or heartbreak at the moment. To let you know that it’s going to be okay, one day.
I’m writing to tell you that as much as people say it’s going to be okay, it’s going to take a long time. I’m writing to say that a lot of things are way beyond our control. I’m writing to say that the only thing you have control over is your actions and emotions.
It’s a liberating feeling, to feel no hate and no grudge towards life or God. To know that everything happens for a reason and as much as you try to alter the eminent future, you are not able to be in control of anything other than yourself. With that being said, forgive yourself. For all the things you could have done better, for all the things you could have done if you had more time. Remember that you are human after all and humans are far from perfect.
I hope that the pain that moulds will also be the pain that saves. Pain that leaves room for hope and faith.